Saturday, June 18, 2011
one fine morning..
The touch of the cold droplets, refreshing my soul and conquering my thoughts drive me to a land beautiful far away, where I see you standing and smiling at me. I am in your favourite red dress; u always admired me in, and you as usual in your black tee, which you must not have separated from yourself since last three days at min!
You held me in your arms and then we walked hands in hand as we always did on rainy mornings. U looked stunningly different, pale white and your touch was strangely cold. You looked at me as I was your most precious asset in the whole world and the pain in your eyes poured down from the skies. You did not say a word to me that day and it was the silence that was filling my heart. You hold my hand and kiss my wrist, and then you cry. I don’t understand why you behaved this way, and then you hugged me hard, kissed my forehead and my lips, then whispered in my ears, love our love is immortal and then you kissed my eyes! Suddenly clouds grew darker and the thunders became louder, the lightning struck and burned me, but you still hugged me and soon we were through…and landed in a sunny beautiful day! I was still in your arms, you were smiling at me and I at you. We walked unending miles when suddenly we reached back to my room where I sipped my last tea. There was blood everywhere, flowing copiously from my wrists and my body laid in the floor, cold dead and alone.
I looked at you and suddenly we reached a highway where your car had crashed into a truck and your body thrown at the corner with thousands wounds and blood. We hold each other again and cry, don’t know those were happy tears or sad, but today I smile, I smile with you in the sunny days of immortality!
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
"People pray to marry the person they love...
Friday, May 8, 2009
hahahaha.....
an unaccomplished love...
holding the paint brush after 8 yrs..was like to b suddenly in the arms of my love after a seperation of 8 yrs !!
so much was i into it..right frm the day i learnt the art of gripping things..to hold things..initially scribbling the walls wid my moms lipstick shades and then wid sketch pens and crayons..after a lot of pursuance i moved to paper..though walls fascinate me till date!
with the brush in my hand i reached the world nver known ..the most beauty of all..wild imaginations with flamboyant colours did their walk on the paper one by one..
I never learnt how to draw ... nvr took classes or training sessions..it was all within..and deeply was i in love wid it! drawing painting were the staple routines whereas...studying ..reading riding were my hobbies..but as i grew up..life's rush took charge of my ..dreams slowly but steadily got buried under reality..i was scolded ..moulded ..thrashed and sometimes wid love made to realize..fairytales are just stories..painting and drawing are just waste of time!
class 5 made it rare..and by the time i was in class 8..it was a forgotten past..
but somewhere down in my heart..a heartbeat still reminded me of the freedom ...the joy ..the ecstacy ..the zeal i experienced in the company of colours..
8 yrs down the lane when i saw the brush laying on the floor and the colours all scattered..without a thought..without a reason..without anything i found myself all engrossed again!
the outcome had surely detoriated with time..hands werent as confident nor was it as easy to open the doors of my imagination as it initially was ..but love was intense and it drove me through..and ended all the yrs of aggression into a smile and satisfaction ... wid a childs caprice ..i laughed loud..a thing long time undone..and i said to myself
"I BELIEVE IN FAIRIES!"
standing still
Am standing on the threshold of life..clueless about mah next step...suddenly everything has freezed n the enviornment is all numb..schooling is done..+2 over and so has my college.
Am a graduate..but now wat next?21 yrs of rush has all come to a sudden standstill.
UNCERTAINTY is the threat lingering in my heart..
was dropping this yr a wise decision to make..will i be able to compete nxt yr..am i walking forward or sinking down in the hourglass of quicksand?
ahh...
pain strucks and victimizes me with consequences of insecurity..blurr vision..and a brutal selfdefeat!
"lost" is the state i have always been phobic to ...but today i feel the thrust on mah head pushing me into the black hole...
its a sharp edge i need to set my flight from or i will fall into the bin of common crowd..
wings are wide open..but UNCERTAINTY still lingers!
[:(]
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
memories down the lane!
Looking back at the eleven glorious years spent in LORETO , a wave of nostalgia sweeps through me..
a vivid mosaic and invitingly compells me to sail through time and relive those splendid moments of innocense .
i still remember the day when i first stepped into the school premises. My small self being clad in blue and beige took in the sprawling grounds, grassy play grounds, huge gardens, gigantic trees and school building abounding in memories , which for years had stood as a silent witness to the generations come and gone..
I was lead away by a pair of gentle and loving hands into a new world - a world of joy , companionship and intimacy- the primary school
Having thus embarked on the journey of enlightment, many milestones were crossed and i reached juniou school with an atmosphere of harmony, amity, togetherness, warmth and childish ecstacy. Along with academics there were trillions of other co- curricular activities which were organised with much enthusiasm and good spirits.
Then came senior school with its maturity, solemnity and responsibilities where i came face to face with reality - the hardships, rigours and hurdles of life, It taught me to face adverse situations bravely. the values instilled in me by this school will remain with me always...
it has succeeded in preparing me spiritually, intellectually, morally and socially for my life in the world today.
I will never forget the wonderfulk people who have moulded me into what am today. I am ever grateful and thankful to them.
today , when i pass by my school - a heaven which beholds memories in every nook n corner the verses of the LORETO CHOROUS resounds in my ears..
" ....And when our school days ended are
And varied paths divide..
O may the ideals of our youth still ever be our guide..
High ideals of purity of duty and of truth ..
Learnt while we bore Loreto's flag ..
In the sunny days of youth"
i fervently pray to God to bless my school and all the people associated with it for achieving its noble goals and for your greater glory!
VIVE LA LORETO!